Sunday, June 06, 2021

Atomic Habits in My life


I read this book titled Atomic Habits! This book is so amazing.

And I have found a new thing about implementing the book towards my experience and myself. This is related to the video about fast reading on Youtube. I tried to do the fast read method in reading this book. Amazingly, I could digest the idea of this book and implementing it towards my own experience. If I compare to the normal speed reading that I used to do, normal reading seems boring and too long for me. I am the one who can be bored easily. Interestingly faster reading gave me a good reason to start reading again. Alhamdulillah.

Oh yes, I would like to reflect this book on my weight loss journey. It started last year. It was started from the Naluri Health App that my company gave me. Naluri gave me a template or idea to start small and do it. Once in a while, you could feel bored right, but the best thing when they give you accesses to all the experts, nutritionists, physicians, psychologists, and so on. What did I do is start recording my meal, what I did eat every day. I took all my foods captured and uploaded them to the software. This habit can be retained and encouraged as I have been given marks by the expert (nutritionist). 

The same things about the exercise, I start small things, like walking and make a low impact. With the help of my smartwatch, I could record things in my journal. And I also linked the data to this app. Getting this routine for almost a year now, and Alhamdulillah I managed a 13 kg loss. Keeping moving forward to keep healthy! Bismillah!

 Photo by Terry Vlisidis on Unsplash


Thursday, May 27, 2021


I am a reader!

I love to read and refound a way to read fast and smart!

I lost my read behavior when I was doing my Ph.D. I was too busy reading mostly papers and articles. So the fond of reading a book, either a fiction or a non-fiction book, has gone. Too much pressure that time I think.

However, I have found that how to read fast on Youtube. It reminds me to do the read, and I have tried it this morning. I managed to read almost 80 pages in 2 hours. Which is quite an impressive result of the smart reading method. And reading faster means that your mind is working faster as well. It has made you think and revisit what you have read. Which is the thing that I need.

Currently, I am reading a book titled Atomic Habits. This book full of beef and made me want to finish it as soon as possible. Once I finished reading the book, I will write a review on my blog. 

One preview for what I read is that changing my identity to redevelop my reading habit. That is why I use the opening sentence as 'I am a reader!.'


Monday, May 24, 2021

You Deserve It!


I have found this phrase on Youtube!

There is a thing that only Allah and I know. It is on how our feeling and how things have been worked for us. How was the situation through our lives. Our situation in our childhood, family, working environment, you name it. We are fighting our own fight!

I always think this on how to put on the other side. Unfortunately, I was totally correct. I have to think from my perspective. I have to take into mind our fight as well. What we have done and what we have gone through. So any which you obtain something, please bear on your mind that 'YOU DESERVE IT!".

Yes, indeed, we deserve what we have. We deserve to have an obligation to live happily! 


Knowing Yourself


Photo by Amanda Jones on Unsplash

It has been a while that I am underestimating myself, either in daily life or in the professional world. I did not think that I have reached something or have something that I could be proud of. Until I found a video on youtube and watch it, there is a series from on Youtube. 

I have just found that this is interesting and relate to me. I was looking for my weakness and what I have done, so I thought like that. I have found that this situation relates to my after PhD life. I did not think that my PhD was great enough from the others. The others have published paper or journal in the good one. I do realize that I am still working on it. In addition, at work, I did not find myself has something to be proud of as well.

When I was relating this situation to that video, there was something wrong with myself. I was too harsh to myself. I have made a list of what I think I have achieved and how I could feel proud of it. There were so many things that I could be proud of. There are ranges from the small things to the bigger ones. Basically, I always compare myself to others. 
I have seen posts from Instagram, Facebook or other things. I saw my age range. People have their own business, have a sports car, have billions, and have a house with a swimming pool. 

If I reflect on myself, I could not be compared with others in this area. We have a different path. My path was staying in the UK for few years. I have gained experience as a global citizen, shaping my mind and way of thinking. I do believe that not many people had the same experience as mine. Staying and working abroad has made me and my family more independent, I could say.

Last but not least, this pandemic has taught us many things as a family. We do have financial planning now. We realise that there is an important thing to prepare everything and mitigate the risk. We do also have a financial recording system which I could proud of myself. I could foresee what will be our budget and what should we do with the cash flow. It was hard for the first time, but we have found the best flow on recording our financial history in a matter of time. Maybe I will share this someday in this blog.

As an employee, I learned a lot of things. There are totally new things for me. I was more on the sales side previously. Sales and marketing were more into relationship management and how to build the relationship. I did really notice how things work. I just know about the product knowledge itself. How the product made or delivered, I was not an expert about that. However, with this new role, at least I know that I could make something happen. Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me a good mentor, boss and colleagues. I learned a lot from them. So I could say that I was a different guy from last year.

So I have found many things that I could be thankful for and grateful for. The most important thing is that we have to realise that We are enough for us, and we deserve it! I did try my best, and I realise that those are for me. 

Wednesday, May 19, 2021

Revisit My Blog

 Just woke up, Adika was cyring. I think he was bloated, we called 'masuk angin'.

Alhamdulillah my wife gave him Yu-Yee Oil and now he is sleeping.

This moment i was sending eid mubarak to my fellow PhD colleague when I was in Cranfield, UK. I have found that I missed the moments i was in Cranfield. Doing PhD, has settled the time and working management there.

Everything was arranged and programmed. Loved it there, i hope someday we could go back there again. To live there, to grow there and to be successful there. In sha Allah. I would like to become like Bang Fauzan, a startup founder which is amazing. Currently i could dream while putting the stepping stones. In sha Allah.

Cranfield taught me a lot of things, Alhamdulillah Allah gave me an opportunity to embarked my PhD there. Lot of things has happened to me, it was one of the stepping stone for where i am standing right now. The foundation to shape my future. As a speaker in AMWAY's Seminar, someone could not have an extraordinary result if they are doing an ordinary way. So, i thought that doing a PhD is an extraordinary way for me. 

How I miss UK a lot, missing the experience which allow us grow as a family there. That is why i do revisit my blog with a #PhD tag. It is totally a journey, a lovely one. 

Photo by Kelly Sikkema on Unsplash


Saturday, May 15, 2021

Putting Expectation to a Prayer

I have found disappointments come while we are depending on something many times. Many times that we  have found a plan for my family and me as for example: to make a trip, then we were planning to buy a house, and many things that we would like to do could not be done due to some circumstances which were beyond our control, 

However, putting the expectations on people or ourselves was intriguing. We forgot that we have to depend on Allah, as He will decide what we plan. Did I feel disappointed? Yes, of course, that was because we were putting the expectation, not to the prayer.

We felt that we had done many things, but if it failed or delayed, we would be so extremely disappointed. So that is now me, myself, to learn how to put an expectation into a prayer. Bismillah... 

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Thursday, May 13, 2021

Being Invisible

"Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle." Philo

Right now that I feel I have something that I need and require. And thank you, Allah, who has fulfilled my needs from Him.

I was thinking that becoming invisible is the best way for me. Invisible here means that I am showing off that I made something and contribute something for others. I intend to do what I think is the best that I could do, let others enjoy the result. However, I really do not care to take the credit for the output that the others could use. I am happy with it.

However, it seems that it was very hard. sometimes, when you become invisible, people tend to not see that you are there and do something because of them. I do not know, maybe they are busy with their own goal, and their level of empathy was not adequate to show their thankfulness or gratefulness.

Maybe I was the one that has the same attitude, or maybe still the same as now. Maybe I still do not know how to say thank you or grateful for whatever I have. Yes, indeed, I often think that everything is because of my work or my attempts and failures. However, it is all arranged by Allah the Al-Mighty. He managed everything for me; I am the one that needs to be thankful and be more grateful. 

I could foresee that there were stages to reach this thinking in terms of a different perspective or different mindset from others. Both education level and experiences have shaped me into this level, which I have to aware that this will be totally different from the others. 

I always remember that each person has their own fight, so I do not have any rights to judge them or undermine them. So, what I could do is to help them. As for now, I have a limitation. I tried to help from my perspective, which is to set my positive mindset for them. I do not know whether it is right or not, but this is the best I could do for now. 



Tuesday, February 16, 2021

Life to Share


Hari Minggu kemarin, tanggal 14 Februari 2021 dapat menyempatkan diri untuk share tentang PhD di UK. Alhamdulillah bisa berbagi dengan teman-teman yang ingin melanjutkan PhD. Banyak hal-hal yang ingin saya share di mana hal itu cuman bisa dirasakan ketika sudah menjalankan PhD Kalau baca di buku, atau di artikel, biasanya itu gak ada atau memang gak kelihatan.

Nah tacit knowledge ini (thanks to Saska) yang diperlukan sebenarnya oleh kami-kami ini. Saya pun merasa ini hal yang diperlukan, karena sebelum saya menjalankan PhD saya belum dapat menemukan hal seperti ini. Jadi saya harap hal ini bisa membantu yang lain.

Ada hal-hal yang bisa saya rasakan ketika sudah PhD, jalan berpikir, memandang sesuatu akan lebih berbeda. Dan yang terutama adalah PhD itu journey to become humble. Humble ini didapat karena kita sadar kalau kita gak sempurna, tulisan kita gak sempurna, PhD kita gak sempurna, riset kita gak sempurna, tulisan kita pun gak sempurna.

In sha Allah siap membantu yang ingin melanjutkan PhD nya. 

Tolong beri saya kekuatan dan kesehatan yang sempurna untuk dapat memberikan lebih untuk orang lain ya Allah Yaa Rahmaan Yaa Rahiim.


Friday, February 12, 2021

Reinventing My Memory!


Barusan saja handphone update, dan spotify hilang saja dong. Account hilang dan password juga, mandiri juga. Akhirnya spotify 'langganan' lagi, kalau mandiri bisa diakalin pakai sms kirim ke +62213355. Soalnya kalau kirim dari sini 3355 gak kekirim.

Jadi ceritanya mulai dengerin lagu coldplay lagi. Entah kenapa lagu Coldplay dengan aroma Britishnya yang kental bikin pikiran ini kembali ke 12 tahun yang lalu, waktu pertama kali merambah di Newcastle, UK. Good time and learned a lot. Pengen rasanya mengulang lagi masa perjuangan itu. Kerja di restoran, ngerjain tugas di library sampai pagi, begitu terus sampai lulus. Padahal waktu di sana bawaannya pengen pulang Indo, nah di Indo pengen balik lagi ke sana.

Sampai tahun 2013 alhamdulilah dapat kesempatan lagi untuk belajar lagi di sana sampai 2017. Alhamdulillah. Perjuangan yang luar biasa. Sangat bersyukur semua pencapaian dan perjalanan yang ada.

Sampai tahun 2019-sekarang tinggal di Malaysia, yang alhamdulillahnya so far is all right. Memang pas sekali ada pandemi. Terus terang ini menganggu sedikit, sempat bolak balik le dokterz diendosokopi colonoscopy, x ray dll. Alhamdulillah so far so good. Ternyata pikiran dan mental. Sempat dialog beberapa kali dengan dialog sampai habis kontraknya.

Nah keinget waktu di NCL, menulis blog atau jurnal bisa jadi membantu penguatan mental. Kita hide comment karena memang saat ini cuma perlu meluapkan dan feedback kurang diperlukan. Kadang kita cuman pengen meluapkan unek2. Dan the best thinf about writing is, kita bisa turn over ke cerita yang lebih positif.

Sejak awal memang saya maksakan supaya setiap keluh kesah yang dituangkan ke dalam blog ini dijadikan positif. Karena apa? Karena semua ada positifnya dan bagaimana cara mengambil positifnya? Perlu dilatih dan itu bertahap caranya.

Saya sekarang kembali belajar untuk bisa lebih 'cerdik' melihat dari perspektif yang, which is positive!

Wish me luck please. Please show me Your Guidance ya Allah Yaa Rahmaan Yaa Rahiim!

Monday, February 08, 2021

Berserah Diri

Alhamdulillah baru beres buka puasa. Lanjut maghrib dan jamaah sama anak istri. Alhamdulillah.

Memang beberapa kali masih ngerasain sakit di dada sama punggung. Alhamdulillah masih bisa ikutin cara yang diajarin Rasulullah lewat Dr Zaidul Akbar.

Jadi beberapa waktu lalu sempat endoskopi dan colonoscopy untuk cek aja. Alhamdulillah hasilnya bagus, ada gerd, parangritis sama batu empedu terlihat. Alhamdulillah so far so good. Semua oke masih.

Batu empedu pakai metoda yang diajarin Prof Roni  pakai apel, olive oil, garam inggris dan jus lemon. 

Setahun lalu sempat sakit dan susah nafas, sudah x Ray juga alhamdulillah aman. In sha Allah Allah Yang Maha Penyembuh. Berusaha hidup sehat, ibadah dan berserah diri sama Allah.


Sunday, February 07, 2021


Kuatir! Sering kali saya merasa kuatir sama hal yang sebenarnya gak perlu. Kadang saya berpikir terlalu dalam atas segala sesuatu.

Jadi ketika melihat berita negatif, kebayang. Ada orang sakit apa, kebayang. Ada pengumuman yang kena covid 19, bingung.

Saya gak tahu kenapa itu terjadi, tapi itu yang saya pikirkan, terus dan mendalam malah kadang sampai gak bisa tidur.

Sebagai tambahan, ketika merasakan sesuatu, contohnya ada sakit atau apa, cari di google. Nah jrengnya adalah ketika di Google semua kemungkinan pasti disebutin, dan you know what, kemungkinan terburuklah yang dipikirkan. Bukan begitu bukan?

Akhirnya berusaha kembalikan lagi ke Allah, badan kita, pikiran kita, jiwa kita, semuanya milik Allah. Kota cuman berusaha menjaganya dan merawatnya. Dan caranya memang sudah disyariatkan di Al Quran dan As Sunnah. Sekarang cara hidup sehat dan makan sehat ada di youtube banyak. Cara-cara Rasulullah SAW supaya sehat.

Kalau pikiran kacau, paling enak baca Al Quran sie. Karena Allah janji kalau Al Quran itu sebagai obat. Jadi kita bisa tagih janji Allah dari situ. In sha Allah kita semua selalu dalam keadaan sehat dan baik. Amiinn.



Friday, February 05, 2021

Find a Meaning as a PhD and an Industrialist

There is no word that can describe how grateful I am to have a PhD and working abroad in the aviation industry.

It has crossed my mind when I was watching mas Yanuar's Nalar on Eps.26.
I told my wife that I feel undermine and desperate for my work. However, these videos gave me a deep insight and force me to look at another answer.

After careful thought and listening to Mas Yan's video, I do understand that there is a good reason I am doing my current job. I could not compare my work to the others, as I have different role and expertise compare to my colleagues.

Currently, I am handling a project to make a learning content, which is in digital form. I am sure that my work also holds importance in the digital transformation role. I do understand that it depends on the 'man behind the gun', not on the gun itself. I am sure that this digital learning will be useful to the society and community because most of the technology has to be human interfered. People who use that has to understand and has to be able to do it. No matter what they do, no matter what cutting-edge machine that we have, the human need to be there and need to be able to interfere for the greater good.

So, in sha Allah my work will be beneficial and useful for all the people, society, In sha Allah.

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Hollistic Approach as a Human

 Yesterday I had a discussion about Methapysic and Healthiness of a Human being, like us.

I have this complaint about my pain in my chest, and then stomach aches as well. I went to the doctor, and they said I am all right. Then, we came up with so-called metaphysic disruption. I could not agree more with him, as it can also the catalyst of the pain. I agree with him.

In addition to that, I do also see the human being itself who maybe being careless about his/her health. As for example, how was my lifestyle and what did I eat, all of them are connecting. Both Physically and Mentally, and we add another perspective, Metaphysically.

The most important logic that we could summarise is that all of these things are can be controlled by the human being themselves. So, we need to pray or ibadat more to prevent ourselves from the metaphysically disrupted. Another one is the physical health, this health can be also be controlled and be monitored by doing few measurements, such as healthy food, do regular exercise or training, and the other as the mentally, we could have measurement such as meditation and so on.

The best thing as a Muslim is, they are mentioned in the Quran and Sunnah. I have learned that how to pray can both measures our mental and physical health. Then, fasting as well, it is a good measurement to our physical health. And these physical measurements also addressing the human being health as holistically. The peak of this practice is mental health and the iman to Allah.

That is what I understand, Wallahu Alam bi shawab.


Wednesday, February 03, 2021


Hi All!

Happiness? Where is it?

I have found it that it is in my mind. Yes, only I can see my happiness and the other way around as well, you can only see your happiness by yourself.

Happiness will differ between one to another. I have happiness in the food, for example, or happy that my car is clean, or happy as I could solve my job's challenges, and so on.

As I read from an article, people with the longest age on the earth are happy. So, yeah, trying to find myself to be happy.

I was desperate in many times, my health, my work, my house, my family, my body, my mind, etc. But what it comes to be like a boomerang, makes me think more and consume my energy more, I think. I feel exhausted, I feel anxious, overwhelm and everything. I have tried a few things until I remember that I have a blog that can be useful. It is not only for me but also it could help people with the same problem as mine.

However, problems will be there based on our perception. Do we see it as a problem? or a challenge? Does it take our energy or the other way around, it could help us to grow? So be it!

I just remember the one I read from a novel, Hey Problem, I have Allah The Almighty! So that is one of the ways as well. I do believe that Allah has arranged everything for us. He set the best for us. All we have to do is to be patient.

If you feel unwell, always believe that our body is created with its capability to heal itself. And we do have Quran as it is promised as medicine for every illness. Rasulullah SAW also gave us an example to do Bekam, consume healthy food, and habitus sauda. What were the examples and the solutions? Yes, that is. I trust that the illness or something that happened in our body is caused by what we have done to our body. What did we eat, we drink, we think, and we have done. Please give me your guidance to keep my iman and do everything according to Your guidance.

Thinking about people? Do not worry, Allah created them as well. So what they have done and what they did to us means to be a way to redirect us to someone better. I wish I knew about this before, it is based on how we think. I do remember the secret, what will happen is all that we have thought before. So keep positive! In sha Allah, Allah loves people who keep positives.

To keep positives? Just hinder the negatives! that what I could suggest. I see many negatives that made me feel overwhelmed, but not anymore when I strict to myself to be more positives!