It has been a while that I am underestimating myself, either in daily life or in the professional world. I did not think that I have reached something or have something that I could be proud of. Until I found a video on youtube and watch it, there is a series from mindvaley.com on Youtube.
I have just found that this is interesting and relate to me. I was looking for my weakness and what I have done, so I thought like that. I have found that this situation relates to my after PhD life. I did not think that my PhD was great enough from the others. The others have published paper or journal in the good one. I do realize that I am still working on it. In addition, at work, I did not find myself has something to be proud of as well.
When I was relating this situation to that video, there was something wrong with myself. I was too harsh to myself. I have made a list of what I think I have achieved and how I could feel proud of it. There were so many things that I could be proud of. There are ranges from the small things to the bigger ones. Basically, I always compare myself to others.
I have seen posts from Instagram, Facebook or other things. I saw my age range. People have their own business, have a sports car, have billions, and have a house with a swimming pool.
If I reflect on myself, I could not be compared with others in this area. We have a different path. My path was staying in the UK for few years. I have gained experience as a global citizen, shaping my mind and way of thinking. I do believe that not many people had the same experience as mine. Staying and working abroad has made me and my family more independent, I could say.
Last but not least, this pandemic has taught us many things as a family. We do have financial planning now. We realise that there is an important thing to prepare everything and mitigate the risk. We do also have a financial recording system which I could proud of myself. I could foresee what will be our budget and what should we do with the cash flow. It was hard for the first time, but we have found the best flow on recording our financial history in a matter of time. Maybe I will share this someday in this blog.
As an employee, I learned a lot of things. There are totally new things for me. I was more on the sales side previously. Sales and marketing were more into relationship management and how to build the relationship. I did really notice how things work. I just know about the product knowledge itself. How the product made or delivered, I was not an expert about that. However, with this new role, at least I know that I could make something happen. Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me a good mentor, boss and colleagues. I learned a lot from them. So I could say that I was a different guy from last year.
So I have found many things that I could be thankful for and grateful for. The most important thing is that we have to realise that We are enough for us, and we deserve it! I did try my best, and I realise that those are for me.